Monday, November 21, 2011 @ 11:15:00 PM


i looked at everybody else's blog and i realised i've not been updating mine.
zza also hasn't updated hers ever since zhikang came into her mundane life.
so here i am. back to blogging.
i read someone's blog about her boyfriend going to army.
and she was so freaking sad and all.
crying like the fountain.
okay i'm just exaggerating that part.
then i thought back and remembered the times when wj went to army.

it was not exactly a dramatic one.
but when he enlisted,
i was in KL for church camp. (kinda sad for him)
didn't see him off but sent him a text to tell him to enjoy himself there.
but that's about it.
i didn't feel much about it actually.
helped him to plan his birthday party,
sending out all the invites through FB and renting a car.

but after two weeks of in camp training,
we went out on a saturday and then on his birthday (which was the day he had to book in)
i was surprisingly VERY elated (at least much happier than i expected).
but on his birthday,
everything was very hectic and all.
didn't had much time to communicate with him and all.
and i felt disappointed when his friends offered to drive him back to camp
and he agreed.
which felt like the time spent wasn't there.
the feeling suddenly set in that night,
all the feelings of emptiness after two weeks.
kinda feel like a laggard.
or maybe it was the hormones problem.

which led me link to what nikki and I did for the five love languages test.
when both of us scored the highest for quality of time.
i guess it really matters to me the time i spend with my friends and family.
i feel very warm and happy when we go out together as a family for holidays
and even like simple gatherings with my grandma or for CNY visitations.
I'm so used to having many people around me and us doing things together.
In secondary school, i thought i will never get a boyfriend once because
i always liked going out in groups.
Going out one on one seemed very awkward for me.

Thinking back,
I used to not like people sending me home, used to not going out one on one,
but all seemed to change as I grew older.
Now on the other hand,
I think going out one on one is a much better thing to do to get to know a person better
but sending me home is a can do it but money wasting thing to do.
used to negotiate with wj that if we go home after 9pm then allowed to send me home.
all these conditions will just sooner or later fade off and all will be forgotten.
just like what xy and zk are doing now,
having a shared piggy bank for their dates.
sometimes you just wanna laugh at them but before you do,
it seemed like it happened to us before too.